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lightNlifesMan
12-09-2009, 09:48 PM
Hi, everyone. I didn't really know where to put this, but it looks like most of Lauren's posts were in this section, so hopefully it will be seen by the people who knew her.

So... it's been more than a month now since Lauren passed away, and I'm realizing that I never really knew her online community all that well. Maybe I was so focused on taking care of her physically that I never spent much time here. Whatever the reason for my lack of participation, I'm feeling like there was a part of my wife that I never got to know.

For those who knew her, can you please share some memories of what Lauren meant to you, favorite stories, or anything like that? I've been overwhelmed by all the prayers and well-wishes from people here; maybe, through you, I can re-capture a bit of what made Lauren special.

Thanks for anything you can share.

lightNlifesMan
12-09-2009, 09:48 PM
Hi, everyone. I didn't really know where to put this, but it looks like most of Lauren's posts were in this section, so hopefully it will be seen by the people who knew her.

So... it's been more than a month now since Lauren passed away, and I'm realizing that I never really knew her online community all that well. Maybe I was so focused on taking care of her physically that I never spent much time here. Whatever the reason for my lack of participation, I'm feeling like there was a part of my wife that I never got to know.

For those who knew her, can you please share some memories of what Lauren meant to you, favorite stories, or anything like that? I've been overwhelmed by all the prayers and well-wishes from people here; maybe, through you, I can re-capture a bit of what made Lauren special.

Thanks for anything you can share.

lightNlifesMan
12-09-2009, 09:48 PM
Hi, everyone. I didn't really know where to put this, but it looks like most of Lauren's posts were in this section, so hopefully it will be seen by the people who knew her.

So... it's been more than a month now since Lauren passed away, and I'm realizing that I never really knew her online community all that well. Maybe I was so focused on taking care of her physically that I never spent much time here. Whatever the reason for my lack of participation, I'm feeling like there was a part of my wife that I never got to know.

For those who knew her, can you please share some memories of what Lauren meant to you, favorite stories, or anything like that? I've been overwhelmed by all the prayers and well-wishes from people here; maybe, through you, I can re-capture a bit of what made Lauren special.

Thanks for anything you can share.

lightNlifesMan
12-09-2009, 09:48 PM
Hi, everyone. I didn't really know where to put this, but it looks like most of Lauren's posts were in this section, so hopefully it will be seen by the people who knew her.

So... it's been more than a month now since Lauren passed away, and I'm realizing that I never really knew her online community all that well. Maybe I was so focused on taking care of her physically that I never spent much time here. Whatever the reason for my lack of participation, I'm feeling like there was a part of my wife that I never got to know.

For those who knew her, can you please share some memories of what Lauren meant to you, favorite stories, or anything like that? I've been overwhelmed by all the prayers and well-wishes from people here; maybe, through you, I can re-capture a bit of what made Lauren special.

Thanks for anything you can share.

lightNlifesMan
12-09-2009, 09:48 PM
Hi, everyone. I didn't really know where to put this, but it looks like most of Lauren's posts were in this section, so hopefully it will be seen by the people who knew her.
<br />
<br />So... it's been more than a month now since Lauren passed away, and I'm realizing that I never really knew her online community all that well. Maybe I was so focused on taking care of her physically that I never spent much time here. Whatever the reason for my lack of participation, I'm feeling like there was a part of my wife that I never got to know.
<br />
<br />For those who knew her, can you please share some memories of what Lauren meant to you, favorite stories, or anything like that? I've been overwhelmed by all the prayers and well-wishes from people here; maybe, through you, I can re-capture a bit of what made Lauren special.
<br />
<br />Thanks for anything you can share.

kayleesgrandma
12-09-2009, 10:13 PM
I wish I could have told her how much she meant to me...I loved her sense of humor--it was so wicked! She gave me much helpful advice, especially about getting Kaylee to play the freanch horn for her CF. I love how she had a little contest to name the bunny I sent her...naming it IVY...

And she loved you so Brad, always talking of you...thank you for coming back to us, it's like Lauren is saying goodbye...

She will have Mel up there with her soon, and they will have such a great party...

This is how I want to remember Lauren:

<img src="http://i136.photobucket.com/albums/q194/laytbug1/LaurenBrad.jpg">

kayleesgrandma
12-09-2009, 10:13 PM
I wish I could have told her how much she meant to me...I loved her sense of humor--it was so wicked! She gave me much helpful advice, especially about getting Kaylee to play the freanch horn for her CF. I love how she had a little contest to name the bunny I sent her...naming it IVY...

And she loved you so Brad, always talking of you...thank you for coming back to us, it's like Lauren is saying goodbye...

She will have Mel up there with her soon, and they will have such a great party...

This is how I want to remember Lauren:

<img src="http://i136.photobucket.com/albums/q194/laytbug1/LaurenBrad.jpg">

kayleesgrandma
12-09-2009, 10:13 PM
I wish I could have told her how much she meant to me...I loved her sense of humor--it was so wicked! She gave me much helpful advice, especially about getting Kaylee to play the freanch horn for her CF. I love how she had a little contest to name the bunny I sent her...naming it IVY...

And she loved you so Brad, always talking of you...thank you for coming back to us, it's like Lauren is saying goodbye...

She will have Mel up there with her soon, and they will have such a great party...

This is how I want to remember Lauren:

<img src="http://i136.photobucket.com/albums/q194/laytbug1/LaurenBrad.jpg">

kayleesgrandma
12-09-2009, 10:13 PM
I wish I could have told her how much she meant to me...I loved her sense of humor--it was so wicked! She gave me much helpful advice, especially about getting Kaylee to play the freanch horn for her CF. I love how she had a little contest to name the bunny I sent her...naming it IVY...

And she loved you so Brad, always talking of you...thank you for coming back to us, it's like Lauren is saying goodbye...

She will have Mel up there with her soon, and they will have such a great party...

This is how I want to remember Lauren:

<img src="http://i136.photobucket.com/albums/q194/laytbug1/LaurenBrad.jpg">

kayleesgrandma
12-09-2009, 10:13 PM
I wish I could have told her how much she meant to me...I loved her sense of humor--it was so wicked! She gave me much helpful advice, especially about getting Kaylee to play the freanch horn for her CF. I love how she had a little contest to name the bunny I sent her...naming it IVY...
<br />
<br />And she loved you so Brad, always talking of you...thank you for coming back to us, it's like Lauren is saying goodbye...
<br />
<br />She will have Mel up there with her soon, and they will have such a great party...
<br />
<br />This is how I want to remember Lauren:
<br />
<br /><img src="http://i136.photobucket.com/albums/q194/laytbug1/LaurenBrad.jpg">

Tumbleweed
12-09-2009, 10:29 PM
Hey Brad.

I met Lauren on blogger way back in 2005 when her blog first started. I had (have) a blog too and we just left each other comments back and forth. We also emailed a little and I cam PM you some of them if you want.

I think Lauren came into my life at the perfect time. We both had CF, both pretty newly married (in retrospect) similar situation health wise and both Christians. So we had a lot in common. I really enjoyed talking with her, and she was one of the first CFers I had talked to online.

Some of the main memories I have of her is talking about how much she loved you. We would talk about how it was nice to have such wonderful, loving husbands taking care of us. I know she took pride at being your wife. I look up to her and respect that she cooked despite feeling bad. (My husband and son have not tasted my cooking in years) And how well she took care of herself. CF really isn't fair, because I know how compliant she was with her meds.

She fought so hard and well. I know that she is with Jesus now and that He is giving her a hug and saying "well done my good and faithful servant." I so enjoyed following her blog and miss her even though we never met face to face. I can't imagine how much you must miss her. I will continue to pray for you, Brad.

God Bless,

Leah

Tumbleweed
12-09-2009, 10:29 PM
Hey Brad.

I met Lauren on blogger way back in 2005 when her blog first started. I had (have) a blog too and we just left each other comments back and forth. We also emailed a little and I cam PM you some of them if you want.

I think Lauren came into my life at the perfect time. We both had CF, both pretty newly married (in retrospect) similar situation health wise and both Christians. So we had a lot in common. I really enjoyed talking with her, and she was one of the first CFers I had talked to online.

Some of the main memories I have of her is talking about how much she loved you. We would talk about how it was nice to have such wonderful, loving husbands taking care of us. I know she took pride at being your wife. I look up to her and respect that she cooked despite feeling bad. (My husband and son have not tasted my cooking in years) And how well she took care of herself. CF really isn't fair, because I know how compliant she was with her meds.

She fought so hard and well. I know that she is with Jesus now and that He is giving her a hug and saying "well done my good and faithful servant." I so enjoyed following her blog and miss her even though we never met face to face. I can't imagine how much you must miss her. I will continue to pray for you, Brad.

God Bless,

Leah

Tumbleweed
12-09-2009, 10:29 PM
Hey Brad.

I met Lauren on blogger way back in 2005 when her blog first started. I had (have) a blog too and we just left each other comments back and forth. We also emailed a little and I cam PM you some of them if you want.

I think Lauren came into my life at the perfect time. We both had CF, both pretty newly married (in retrospect) similar situation health wise and both Christians. So we had a lot in common. I really enjoyed talking with her, and she was one of the first CFers I had talked to online.

Some of the main memories I have of her is talking about how much she loved you. We would talk about how it was nice to have such wonderful, loving husbands taking care of us. I know she took pride at being your wife. I look up to her and respect that she cooked despite feeling bad. (My husband and son have not tasted my cooking in years) And how well she took care of herself. CF really isn't fair, because I know how compliant she was with her meds.

She fought so hard and well. I know that she is with Jesus now and that He is giving her a hug and saying "well done my good and faithful servant." I so enjoyed following her blog and miss her even though we never met face to face. I can't imagine how much you must miss her. I will continue to pray for you, Brad.

God Bless,

Leah

Tumbleweed
12-09-2009, 10:29 PM
Hey Brad.

I met Lauren on blogger way back in 2005 when her blog first started. I had (have) a blog too and we just left each other comments back and forth. We also emailed a little and I cam PM you some of them if you want.

I think Lauren came into my life at the perfect time. We both had CF, both pretty newly married (in retrospect) similar situation health wise and both Christians. So we had a lot in common. I really enjoyed talking with her, and she was one of the first CFers I had talked to online.

Some of the main memories I have of her is talking about how much she loved you. We would talk about how it was nice to have such wonderful, loving husbands taking care of us. I know she took pride at being your wife. I look up to her and respect that she cooked despite feeling bad. (My husband and son have not tasted my cooking in years) And how well she took care of herself. CF really isn't fair, because I know how compliant she was with her meds.

She fought so hard and well. I know that she is with Jesus now and that He is giving her a hug and saying "well done my good and faithful servant." I so enjoyed following her blog and miss her even though we never met face to face. I can't imagine how much you must miss her. I will continue to pray for you, Brad.

God Bless,

Leah

Tumbleweed
12-09-2009, 10:29 PM
Hey Brad.
<br />
<br />I met Lauren on blogger way back in 2005 when her blog first started. I had (have) a blog too and we just left each other comments back and forth. We also emailed a little and I cam PM you some of them if you want.
<br />
<br />I think Lauren came into my life at the perfect time. We both had CF, both pretty newly married (in retrospect) similar situation health wise and both Christians. So we had a lot in common. I really enjoyed talking with her, and she was one of the first CFers I had talked to online.
<br />
<br />Some of the main memories I have of her is talking about how much she loved you. We would talk about how it was nice to have such wonderful, loving husbands taking care of us. I know she took pride at being your wife. I look up to her and respect that she cooked despite feeling bad. (My husband and son have not tasted my cooking in years) And how well she took care of herself. CF really isn't fair, because I know how compliant she was with her meds.
<br />
<br />She fought so hard and well. I know that she is with Jesus now and that He is giving her a hug and saying "well done my good and faithful servant." I so enjoyed following her blog and miss her even though we never met face to face. I can't imagine how much you must miss her. I will continue to pray for you, Brad.
<br />
<br />God Bless,
<br />
<br />Leah

saveferris2009
12-10-2009, 12:21 AM
Brad - I PMed you

saveferris2009
12-10-2009, 12:21 AM
Brad - I PMed you

saveferris2009
12-10-2009, 12:21 AM
Brad - I PMed you

saveferris2009
12-10-2009, 12:21 AM
Brad - I PMed you

saveferris2009
12-10-2009, 12:21 AM
Brad - I PMed you

JennifersHope
12-10-2009, 01:45 AM
I will respond, I am just very devasted right now over Melissa... Please give me time.

JennifersHope
12-10-2009, 01:45 AM
I will respond, I am just very devasted right now over Melissa... Please give me time.

JennifersHope
12-10-2009, 01:45 AM
I will respond, I am just very devasted right now over Melissa... Please give me time.

JennifersHope
12-10-2009, 01:45 AM
I will respond, I am just very devasted right now over Melissa... Please give me time.

JennifersHope
12-10-2009, 01:45 AM
I will respond, I am just very devasted right now over Melissa... Please give me time.

Aspiemom
12-10-2009, 02:11 AM
I will be PMing you in the next day or two. I was tempted to call you, but figured the PM would be less emotional!

Aspiemom
12-10-2009, 02:11 AM
I will be PMing you in the next day or two. I was tempted to call you, but figured the PM would be less emotional!

Aspiemom
12-10-2009, 02:11 AM
I will be PMing you in the next day or two. I was tempted to call you, but figured the PM would be less emotional!

Aspiemom
12-10-2009, 02:11 AM
I will be PMing you in the next day or two. I was tempted to call you, but figured the PM would be less emotional!

Aspiemom
12-10-2009, 02:11 AM
I will be PMing you in the next day or two. I was tempted to call you, but figured the PM would be less emotional!

MicheleGazelle
12-10-2009, 09:33 AM
Lauren was very kind to me. It meant a lot to me. I've gotten a lot of flack from this community, but Lauren was a striking exception. She PM'd me a few times and was always extremely nice, in a genuine way, not a facade. I'm sorry I did not get a chance to know her better. She seemed like a remarkable person.

MicheleGazelle
12-10-2009, 09:33 AM
Lauren was very kind to me. It meant a lot to me. I've gotten a lot of flack from this community, but Lauren was a striking exception. She PM'd me a few times and was always extremely nice, in a genuine way, not a facade. I'm sorry I did not get a chance to know her better. She seemed like a remarkable person.

MicheleGazelle
12-10-2009, 09:33 AM
Lauren was very kind to me. It meant a lot to me. I've gotten a lot of flack from this community, but Lauren was a striking exception. She PM'd me a few times and was always extremely nice, in a genuine way, not a facade. I'm sorry I did not get a chance to know her better. She seemed like a remarkable person.

MicheleGazelle
12-10-2009, 09:33 AM
Lauren was very kind to me. It meant a lot to me. I've gotten a lot of flack from this community, but Lauren was a striking exception. She PM'd me a few times and was always extremely nice, in a genuine way, not a facade. I'm sorry I did not get a chance to know her better. She seemed like a remarkable person.

MicheleGazelle
12-10-2009, 09:33 AM
Lauren was very kind to me. It meant a lot to me. I've gotten a lot of flack from this community, but Lauren was a striking exception. She PM'd me a few times and was always extremely nice, in a genuine way, not a facade. I'm sorry I did not get a chance to know her better. She seemed like a remarkable person.

65rosessamurai
12-10-2009, 11:00 AM
Hi Brad,

Welcome to the CF community and lightNlife's lighter side. I have a lot of pm's I'm willing to share with you. I'm sure it would not only bring a smile to your face but open up a new page to see how she affected others here on this site.

I cannot give you an immediate reply on the pm's but will send them as soon as I can.

Best to you and hope things are going as best that they can.

Your friend from the CF community,

Fred, aka 65rosessamurai

65rosessamurai
12-10-2009, 11:00 AM
Hi Brad,

Welcome to the CF community and lightNlife's lighter side. I have a lot of pm's I'm willing to share with you. I'm sure it would not only bring a smile to your face but open up a new page to see how she affected others here on this site.

I cannot give you an immediate reply on the pm's but will send them as soon as I can.

Best to you and hope things are going as best that they can.

Your friend from the CF community,

Fred, aka 65rosessamurai

65rosessamurai
12-10-2009, 11:00 AM
Hi Brad,

Welcome to the CF community and lightNlife's lighter side. I have a lot of pm's I'm willing to share with you. I'm sure it would not only bring a smile to your face but open up a new page to see how she affected others here on this site.

I cannot give you an immediate reply on the pm's but will send them as soon as I can.

Best to you and hope things are going as best that they can.

Your friend from the CF community,

Fred, aka 65rosessamurai

65rosessamurai
12-10-2009, 11:00 AM
Hi Brad,

Welcome to the CF community and lightNlife's lighter side. I have a lot of pm's I'm willing to share with you. I'm sure it would not only bring a smile to your face but open up a new page to see how she affected others here on this site.

I cannot give you an immediate reply on the pm's but will send them as soon as I can.

Best to you and hope things are going as best that they can.

Your friend from the CF community,

Fred, aka 65rosessamurai

65rosessamurai
12-10-2009, 11:00 AM
Hi Brad,
<br />
<br />Welcome to the CF community and lightNlife's lighter side. I have a lot of pm's I'm willing to share with you. I'm sure it would not only bring a smile to your face but open up a new page to see how she affected others here on this site.
<br />
<br />I cannot give you an immediate reply on the pm's but will send them as soon as I can.
<br />
<br />Best to you and hope things are going as best that they can.
<br />
<br />Your friend from the CF community,
<br />
<br />Fred, aka 65rosessamurai

lightNlifesMan
12-10-2009, 01:02 PM
Terri: that's my favorite picture of us, too!

Leah: I remember when Lauren met you and your sister on Blogger. You were the first CFers she had met in a really long time (since cepacia and cross-infection issues had isolated her around '98 or '99), and she was so excited to have found new friends online.

Fred: That picture of you and your wife from this past New Year is still up on the fridge! It reminds me to think about and pray for you often.

Thanks for the quick responses, everybody! And, of course, I'd love to hear what anyone else might like to share as well.

lightNlifesMan
12-10-2009, 01:02 PM
Terri: that's my favorite picture of us, too!

Leah: I remember when Lauren met you and your sister on Blogger. You were the first CFers she had met in a really long time (since cepacia and cross-infection issues had isolated her around '98 or '99), and she was so excited to have found new friends online.

Fred: That picture of you and your wife from this past New Year is still up on the fridge! It reminds me to think about and pray for you often.

Thanks for the quick responses, everybody! And, of course, I'd love to hear what anyone else might like to share as well.

lightNlifesMan
12-10-2009, 01:02 PM
Terri: that's my favorite picture of us, too!

Leah: I remember when Lauren met you and your sister on Blogger. You were the first CFers she had met in a really long time (since cepacia and cross-infection issues had isolated her around '98 or '99), and she was so excited to have found new friends online.

Fred: That picture of you and your wife from this past New Year is still up on the fridge! It reminds me to think about and pray for you often.

Thanks for the quick responses, everybody! And, of course, I'd love to hear what anyone else might like to share as well.

lightNlifesMan
12-10-2009, 01:02 PM
Terri: that's my favorite picture of us, too!

Leah: I remember when Lauren met you and your sister on Blogger. You were the first CFers she had met in a really long time (since cepacia and cross-infection issues had isolated her around '98 or '99), and she was so excited to have found new friends online.

Fred: That picture of you and your wife from this past New Year is still up on the fridge! It reminds me to think about and pray for you often.

Thanks for the quick responses, everybody! And, of course, I'd love to hear what anyone else might like to share as well.

lightNlifesMan
12-10-2009, 01:02 PM
Terri: that's my favorite picture of us, too!
<br />
<br />Leah: I remember when Lauren met you and your sister on Blogger. You were the first CFers she had met in a really long time (since cepacia and cross-infection issues had isolated her around '98 or '99), and she was so excited to have found new friends online.
<br />
<br />Fred: That picture of you and your wife from this past New Year is still up on the fridge! It reminds me to think about and pray for you often.
<br />
<br />Thanks for the quick responses, everybody! And, of course, I'd love to hear what anyone else might like to share as well.

NYCLawGirl
12-10-2009, 01:47 PM
Lauren was always such a giver. She sent me encouraging messages more than once when I was in the hospital or just dealing with annoying CF issues. I went through the eval for transplant about a year before she did and we messaged a little back and forth about it -- seems like we were both in a similar situation with higher FEV1s (by transplant standards) but major issues with infection. I loved her positive attitude and ability to see everything in life as such a gift from God. Her faith was such a strong and obvious aspect of her personality.

I also remember Lauren for her TIRELESS effort to educate people about CF. Beyond her amazing "understanding CF" blog, she was always willing to jump in on a conversation to share info or correct a misunderstanding. I always waited for her posts in the many threads about cepacia -- she would chime in with her wealth of knowledge and positive attitude and help answer everyone's questions. She was the first to really explain to me about the different variations of cepacia.

My favorite Lauren memory, though, is of the silly song parodies that she would make up. "I coughed all night" ("Oh what a night" by Billy Joel) and others literally had me laughing so hard I couldn't breathe at times. She had such a great sense of humor about it all, and could always help share a much-needed smile.

Brad, I am so sorry for your loss. Please know that your wife was a wonderful, caring, and beloved member of the CF community and that we all miss her brightness and spirit. Her screenname said it all: she truly managed to find (and show others) the amazing light in life.

NYCLawGirl
12-10-2009, 01:47 PM
Lauren was always such a giver. She sent me encouraging messages more than once when I was in the hospital or just dealing with annoying CF issues. I went through the eval for transplant about a year before she did and we messaged a little back and forth about it -- seems like we were both in a similar situation with higher FEV1s (by transplant standards) but major issues with infection. I loved her positive attitude and ability to see everything in life as such a gift from God. Her faith was such a strong and obvious aspect of her personality.

I also remember Lauren for her TIRELESS effort to educate people about CF. Beyond her amazing "understanding CF" blog, she was always willing to jump in on a conversation to share info or correct a misunderstanding. I always waited for her posts in the many threads about cepacia -- she would chime in with her wealth of knowledge and positive attitude and help answer everyone's questions. She was the first to really explain to me about the different variations of cepacia.

My favorite Lauren memory, though, is of the silly song parodies that she would make up. "I coughed all night" ("Oh what a night" by Billy Joel) and others literally had me laughing so hard I couldn't breathe at times. She had such a great sense of humor about it all, and could always help share a much-needed smile.

Brad, I am so sorry for your loss. Please know that your wife was a wonderful, caring, and beloved member of the CF community and that we all miss her brightness and spirit. Her screenname said it all: she truly managed to find (and show others) the amazing light in life.

NYCLawGirl
12-10-2009, 01:47 PM
Lauren was always such a giver. She sent me encouraging messages more than once when I was in the hospital or just dealing with annoying CF issues. I went through the eval for transplant about a year before she did and we messaged a little back and forth about it -- seems like we were both in a similar situation with higher FEV1s (by transplant standards) but major issues with infection. I loved her positive attitude and ability to see everything in life as such a gift from God. Her faith was such a strong and obvious aspect of her personality.

I also remember Lauren for her TIRELESS effort to educate people about CF. Beyond her amazing "understanding CF" blog, she was always willing to jump in on a conversation to share info or correct a misunderstanding. I always waited for her posts in the many threads about cepacia -- she would chime in with her wealth of knowledge and positive attitude and help answer everyone's questions. She was the first to really explain to me about the different variations of cepacia.

My favorite Lauren memory, though, is of the silly song parodies that she would make up. "I coughed all night" ("Oh what a night" by Billy Joel) and others literally had me laughing so hard I couldn't breathe at times. She had such a great sense of humor about it all, and could always help share a much-needed smile.

Brad, I am so sorry for your loss. Please know that your wife was a wonderful, caring, and beloved member of the CF community and that we all miss her brightness and spirit. Her screenname said it all: she truly managed to find (and show others) the amazing light in life.

NYCLawGirl
12-10-2009, 01:47 PM
Lauren was always such a giver. She sent me encouraging messages more than once when I was in the hospital or just dealing with annoying CF issues. I went through the eval for transplant about a year before she did and we messaged a little back and forth about it -- seems like we were both in a similar situation with higher FEV1s (by transplant standards) but major issues with infection. I loved her positive attitude and ability to see everything in life as such a gift from God. Her faith was such a strong and obvious aspect of her personality.

I also remember Lauren for her TIRELESS effort to educate people about CF. Beyond her amazing "understanding CF" blog, she was always willing to jump in on a conversation to share info or correct a misunderstanding. I always waited for her posts in the many threads about cepacia -- she would chime in with her wealth of knowledge and positive attitude and help answer everyone's questions. She was the first to really explain to me about the different variations of cepacia.

My favorite Lauren memory, though, is of the silly song parodies that she would make up. "I coughed all night" ("Oh what a night" by Billy Joel) and others literally had me laughing so hard I couldn't breathe at times. She had such a great sense of humor about it all, and could always help share a much-needed smile.

Brad, I am so sorry for your loss. Please know that your wife was a wonderful, caring, and beloved member of the CF community and that we all miss her brightness and spirit. Her screenname said it all: she truly managed to find (and show others) the amazing light in life.

NYCLawGirl
12-10-2009, 01:47 PM
Lauren was always such a giver. She sent me encouraging messages more than once when I was in the hospital or just dealing with annoying CF issues. I went through the eval for transplant about a year before she did and we messaged a little back and forth about it -- seems like we were both in a similar situation with higher FEV1s (by transplant standards) but major issues with infection. I loved her positive attitude and ability to see everything in life as such a gift from God. Her faith was such a strong and obvious aspect of her personality.
<br />
<br />I also remember Lauren for her TIRELESS effort to educate people about CF. Beyond her amazing "understanding CF" blog, she was always willing to jump in on a conversation to share info or correct a misunderstanding. I always waited for her posts in the many threads about cepacia -- she would chime in with her wealth of knowledge and positive attitude and help answer everyone's questions. She was the first to really explain to me about the different variations of cepacia.
<br />
<br />My favorite Lauren memory, though, is of the silly song parodies that she would make up. "I coughed all night" ("Oh what a night" by Billy Joel) and others literally had me laughing so hard I couldn't breathe at times. She had such a great sense of humor about it all, and could always help share a much-needed smile.
<br />
<br />Brad, I am so sorry for your loss. Please know that your wife was a wonderful, caring, and beloved member of the CF community and that we all miss her brightness and spirit. Her screenname said it all: she truly managed to find (and show others) the amazing light in life.

izemmom
12-10-2009, 02:12 PM
Brad,

I didn't know Lauren very well. I'm not sure we ever wxchanged PM's and she wasn't a frequent commenter on my blogs or posts. But, I wanted to say that I noticed, over the years of cf bloghopping, that many, many cf sites out there link to Lauren's site. It didn't matter the age of the cf'er or wether the person was a parent or patient...almost everyone who blogs about CF knew Lauren and referred others to her blog. That's a testament to her vast knowledge and her wonderful way with words. People trusted in her opinions and wanted her input. She will be missed for a long time to come.

izemmom
12-10-2009, 02:12 PM
Brad,

I didn't know Lauren very well. I'm not sure we ever wxchanged PM's and she wasn't a frequent commenter on my blogs or posts. But, I wanted to say that I noticed, over the years of cf bloghopping, that many, many cf sites out there link to Lauren's site. It didn't matter the age of the cf'er or wether the person was a parent or patient...almost everyone who blogs about CF knew Lauren and referred others to her blog. That's a testament to her vast knowledge and her wonderful way with words. People trusted in her opinions and wanted her input. She will be missed for a long time to come.

izemmom
12-10-2009, 02:12 PM
Brad,

I didn't know Lauren very well. I'm not sure we ever wxchanged PM's and she wasn't a frequent commenter on my blogs or posts. But, I wanted to say that I noticed, over the years of cf bloghopping, that many, many cf sites out there link to Lauren's site. It didn't matter the age of the cf'er or wether the person was a parent or patient...almost everyone who blogs about CF knew Lauren and referred others to her blog. That's a testament to her vast knowledge and her wonderful way with words. People trusted in her opinions and wanted her input. She will be missed for a long time to come.

izemmom
12-10-2009, 02:12 PM
Brad,

I didn't know Lauren very well. I'm not sure we ever wxchanged PM's and she wasn't a frequent commenter on my blogs or posts. But, I wanted to say that I noticed, over the years of cf bloghopping, that many, many cf sites out there link to Lauren's site. It didn't matter the age of the cf'er or wether the person was a parent or patient...almost everyone who blogs about CF knew Lauren and referred others to her blog. That's a testament to her vast knowledge and her wonderful way with words. People trusted in her opinions and wanted her input. She will be missed for a long time to come.

izemmom
12-10-2009, 02:12 PM
Brad,
<br />
<br />I didn't know Lauren very well. I'm not sure we ever wxchanged PM's and she wasn't a frequent commenter on my blogs or posts. But, I wanted to say that I noticed, over the years of cf bloghopping, that many, many cf sites out there link to Lauren's site. It didn't matter the age of the cf'er or wether the person was a parent or patient...almost everyone who blogs about CF knew Lauren and referred others to her blog. That's a testament to her vast knowledge and her wonderful way with words. People trusted in her opinions and wanted her input. She will be missed for a long time to come.

JORDYSMOM
12-10-2009, 02:30 PM
I've been thinking about you lately, Brad. I'm glad you've come to us, because Lauren really meant so much to us here. I too will go through my PMs and share them with you.

Lauren was very funny, and she had a way of making me smile even when I was very sad. I blogged about our family's rabbit passing away. Our rabbits name was Fuzzy Butt Bunny. Lauren took a picture of her bunny's behind, and posted it on my blog. It was just what I needed.

Stacey

JORDYSMOM
12-10-2009, 02:30 PM
I've been thinking about you lately, Brad. I'm glad you've come to us, because Lauren really meant so much to us here. I too will go through my PMs and share them with you.

Lauren was very funny, and she had a way of making me smile even when I was very sad. I blogged about our family's rabbit passing away. Our rabbits name was Fuzzy Butt Bunny. Lauren took a picture of her bunny's behind, and posted it on my blog. It was just what I needed.

Stacey

JORDYSMOM
12-10-2009, 02:30 PM
I've been thinking about you lately, Brad. I'm glad you've come to us, because Lauren really meant so much to us here. I too will go through my PMs and share them with you.

Lauren was very funny, and she had a way of making me smile even when I was very sad. I blogged about our family's rabbit passing away. Our rabbits name was Fuzzy Butt Bunny. Lauren took a picture of her bunny's behind, and posted it on my blog. It was just what I needed.

Stacey

JORDYSMOM
12-10-2009, 02:30 PM
I've been thinking about you lately, Brad. I'm glad you've come to us, because Lauren really meant so much to us here. I too will go through my PMs and share them with you.

Lauren was very funny, and she had a way of making me smile even when I was very sad. I blogged about our family's rabbit passing away. Our rabbits name was Fuzzy Butt Bunny. Lauren took a picture of her bunny's behind, and posted it on my blog. It was just what I needed.

Stacey

JORDYSMOM
12-10-2009, 02:30 PM
I've been thinking about you lately, Brad. I'm glad you've come to us, because Lauren really meant so much to us here. I too will go through my PMs and share them with you.
<br />
<br />Lauren was very funny, and she had a way of making me smile even when I was very sad. I blogged about our family's rabbit passing away. Our rabbits name was Fuzzy Butt Bunny. Lauren took a picture of her bunny's behind, and posted it on my blog. It was just what I needed.
<br />
<br />Stacey

Imogene
12-10-2009, 03:34 PM
Brad: I passed your hotel on 29th street in NYC with Jada this morning. I can't believe how lucky Peter and I were last year to meet both of you and have dinner at the Ocean Grille.

I hope you saw this thread that Debbi started:

<a target=_blank class=ftalternatingbarlinklarge href="http://www.cysticfibrosis.com/forums/messageview.cfm?catid=3213&threadid=49420&highlight_key=y">LightNLife</a>

I, of course, have many Second Life memories because our Avatars were very close...
I'll be writing more this weekend.
Comfort and Peace my friend!
Jeanne

Imogene
12-10-2009, 03:34 PM
Brad: I passed your hotel on 29th street in NYC with Jada this morning. I can't believe how lucky Peter and I were last year to meet both of you and have dinner at the Ocean Grille.

I hope you saw this thread that Debbi started:

<a target=_blank class=ftalternatingbarlinklarge href="http://www.cysticfibrosis.com/forums/messageview.cfm?catid=3213&threadid=49420&highlight_key=y">LightNLife</a>

I, of course, have many Second Life memories because our Avatars were very close...
I'll be writing more this weekend.
Comfort and Peace my friend!
Jeanne

Imogene
12-10-2009, 03:34 PM
Brad: I passed your hotel on 29th street in NYC with Jada this morning. I can't believe how lucky Peter and I were last year to meet both of you and have dinner at the Ocean Grille.

I hope you saw this thread that Debbi started:

<a target=_blank class=ftalternatingbarlinklarge href="http://www.cysticfibrosis.com/forums/messageview.cfm?catid=3213&threadid=49420&highlight_key=y">LightNLife</a>

I, of course, have many Second Life memories because our Avatars were very close...
I'll be writing more this weekend.
Comfort and Peace my friend!
Jeanne

Imogene
12-10-2009, 03:34 PM
Brad: I passed your hotel on 29th street in NYC with Jada this morning. I can't believe how lucky Peter and I were last year to meet both of you and have dinner at the Ocean Grille.

I hope you saw this thread that Debbi started:

<a target=_blank class=ftalternatingbarlinklarge href="http://www.cysticfibrosis.com/forums/messageview.cfm?catid=3213&threadid=49420&highlight_key=y">LightNLife</a>

I, of course, have many Second Life memories because our Avatars were very close...
I'll be writing more this weekend.
Comfort and Peace my friend!
Jeanne

Imogene
12-10-2009, 03:34 PM
Brad: I passed your hotel on 29th street in NYC with Jada this morning. I can't believe how lucky Peter and I were last year to meet both of you and have dinner at the Ocean Grille.
<br />
<br />I hope you saw this thread that Debbi started:
<br />
<br /><a target=_blank class=ftalternatingbarlinklarge href="http://www.cysticfibrosis.com/forums/messageview.cfm?catid=3213&threadid=49420&highlight_key=y">LightNLife</a>
<br />
<br />I, of course, have many Second Life memories because our Avatars were very close...
<br />I'll be writing more this weekend.
<br />Comfort and Peace my friend!
<br />Jeanne

lilywing
12-10-2009, 05:16 PM
Hi Brad

I didn't know Lauren well. However, shortly after I joined this site, I was in hospital, desperate and depressed. LightNlife responded and was so understanding, uplifting, and truly wonderful. I was struck by how fitting the name lightNlife was to this person, someone I didn't know but who was there for me in a time of need.
Now that I see this picture of the two of you, I feel the name is more fitting than ever!! What a great spirit!

Take care

lilywing
12-10-2009, 05:16 PM
Hi Brad

I didn't know Lauren well. However, shortly after I joined this site, I was in hospital, desperate and depressed. LightNlife responded and was so understanding, uplifting, and truly wonderful. I was struck by how fitting the name lightNlife was to this person, someone I didn't know but who was there for me in a time of need.
Now that I see this picture of the two of you, I feel the name is more fitting than ever!! What a great spirit!

Take care

lilywing
12-10-2009, 05:16 PM
Hi Brad

I didn't know Lauren well. However, shortly after I joined this site, I was in hospital, desperate and depressed. LightNlife responded and was so understanding, uplifting, and truly wonderful. I was struck by how fitting the name lightNlife was to this person, someone I didn't know but who was there for me in a time of need.
Now that I see this picture of the two of you, I feel the name is more fitting than ever!! What a great spirit!

Take care

lilywing
12-10-2009, 05:16 PM
Hi Brad

I didn't know Lauren well. However, shortly after I joined this site, I was in hospital, desperate and depressed. LightNlife responded and was so understanding, uplifting, and truly wonderful. I was struck by how fitting the name lightNlife was to this person, someone I didn't know but who was there for me in a time of need.
Now that I see this picture of the two of you, I feel the name is more fitting than ever!! What a great spirit!

Take care

lilywing
12-10-2009, 05:16 PM
Hi Brad
<br />
<br />I didn't know Lauren well. However, shortly after I joined this site, I was in hospital, desperate and depressed. LightNlife responded and was so understanding, uplifting, and truly wonderful. I was struck by how fitting the name lightNlife was to this person, someone I didn't know but who was there for me in a time of need.
<br />Now that I see this picture of the two of you, I feel the name is more fitting than ever!! What a great spirit!
<br />
<br />Take care

momtoCory
12-10-2009, 05:57 PM
Hi Brad-

I shared a lot of discussions with lauren about Cepacia. My son also had Cepacia and Lauren was always quick to share her own personal experiences with living with it. Even with her own struggles, she was ALWAYS there to lend a shoulder to cry on, advice, and even cheering up. I learned SO VERY much from her.

What amazed me the most was that she never, never complained. She refused to allow CF and all that came with CF to take away her love in God and her belief. I too, learned a great deal from her in that area. I myself did not come from a strong faith background. And seeing the way her faith lifted her in even the toughest moments, was always amazing to me.

I visited her personal blog often and was amazed at her writing ability and her ability to share insights and teaching about CF. She was a complete value to everyone living with CF in their life.

I personally would have had a very difficult time making it through Cory's last few months without Lauren

momtoCory
12-10-2009, 05:57 PM
Hi Brad-

I shared a lot of discussions with lauren about Cepacia. My son also had Cepacia and Lauren was always quick to share her own personal experiences with living with it. Even with her own struggles, she was ALWAYS there to lend a shoulder to cry on, advice, and even cheering up. I learned SO VERY much from her.

What amazed me the most was that she never, never complained. She refused to allow CF and all that came with CF to take away her love in God and her belief. I too, learned a great deal from her in that area. I myself did not come from a strong faith background. And seeing the way her faith lifted her in even the toughest moments, was always amazing to me.

I visited her personal blog often and was amazed at her writing ability and her ability to share insights and teaching about CF. She was a complete value to everyone living with CF in their life.

I personally would have had a very difficult time making it through Cory's last few months without Lauren

momtoCory
12-10-2009, 05:57 PM
Hi Brad-

I shared a lot of discussions with lauren about Cepacia. My son also had Cepacia and Lauren was always quick to share her own personal experiences with living with it. Even with her own struggles, she was ALWAYS there to lend a shoulder to cry on, advice, and even cheering up. I learned SO VERY much from her.

What amazed me the most was that she never, never complained. She refused to allow CF and all that came with CF to take away her love in God and her belief. I too, learned a great deal from her in that area. I myself did not come from a strong faith background. And seeing the way her faith lifted her in even the toughest moments, was always amazing to me.

I visited her personal blog often and was amazed at her writing ability and her ability to share insights and teaching about CF. She was a complete value to everyone living with CF in their life.

I personally would have had a very difficult time making it through Cory's last few months without Lauren

momtoCory
12-10-2009, 05:57 PM
Hi Brad-

I shared a lot of discussions with lauren about Cepacia. My son also had Cepacia and Lauren was always quick to share her own personal experiences with living with it. Even with her own struggles, she was ALWAYS there to lend a shoulder to cry on, advice, and even cheering up. I learned SO VERY much from her.

What amazed me the most was that she never, never complained. She refused to allow CF and all that came with CF to take away her love in God and her belief. I too, learned a great deal from her in that area. I myself did not come from a strong faith background. And seeing the way her faith lifted her in even the toughest moments, was always amazing to me.

I visited her personal blog often and was amazed at her writing ability and her ability to share insights and teaching about CF. She was a complete value to everyone living with CF in their life.

I personally would have had a very difficult time making it through Cory's last few months without Lauren

momtoCory
12-10-2009, 05:57 PM
Hi Brad-
<br />
<br />I shared a lot of discussions with lauren about Cepacia. My son also had Cepacia and Lauren was always quick to share her own personal experiences with living with it. Even with her own struggles, she was ALWAYS there to lend a shoulder to cry on, advice, and even cheering up. I learned SO VERY much from her.
<br />
<br />What amazed me the most was that she never, never complained. She refused to allow CF and all that came with CF to take away her love in God and her belief. I too, learned a great deal from her in that area. I myself did not come from a strong faith background. And seeing the way her faith lifted her in even the toughest moments, was always amazing to me.
<br />
<br />I visited her personal blog often and was amazed at her writing ability and her ability to share insights and teaching about CF. She was a complete value to everyone living with CF in their life.
<br />
<br />I personally would have had a very difficult time making it through Cory's last few months without Lauren

lightNlifesMan
12-10-2009, 06:12 PM
Michelle: It would have been tough getting through *Lauren's* last few months if it hadn't been for her, as well!

The last big interaction I remember with her was on the day before she had to be intubated, when she was so full of medications as to make her loopy and "out of it" for all intents and purposes. When I had to leave for the night to go home and sleep, she gave me the biggest hug ever and patted my back, like she was trying to comfort me. I remember thinking, "She's the one who needs comfort at this time! What's this about?" But she knew what I needed, and that'll be a precious memory forever.

lightNlifesMan
12-10-2009, 06:12 PM
Michelle: It would have been tough getting through *Lauren's* last few months if it hadn't been for her, as well!

The last big interaction I remember with her was on the day before she had to be intubated, when she was so full of medications as to make her loopy and "out of it" for all intents and purposes. When I had to leave for the night to go home and sleep, she gave me the biggest hug ever and patted my back, like she was trying to comfort me. I remember thinking, "She's the one who needs comfort at this time! What's this about?" But she knew what I needed, and that'll be a precious memory forever.

lightNlifesMan
12-10-2009, 06:12 PM
Michelle: It would have been tough getting through *Lauren's* last few months if it hadn't been for her, as well!

The last big interaction I remember with her was on the day before she had to be intubated, when she was so full of medications as to make her loopy and "out of it" for all intents and purposes. When I had to leave for the night to go home and sleep, she gave me the biggest hug ever and patted my back, like she was trying to comfort me. I remember thinking, "She's the one who needs comfort at this time! What's this about?" But she knew what I needed, and that'll be a precious memory forever.

lightNlifesMan
12-10-2009, 06:12 PM
Michelle: It would have been tough getting through *Lauren's* last few months if it hadn't been for her, as well!

The last big interaction I remember with her was on the day before she had to be intubated, when she was so full of medications as to make her loopy and "out of it" for all intents and purposes. When I had to leave for the night to go home and sleep, she gave me the biggest hug ever and patted my back, like she was trying to comfort me. I remember thinking, "She's the one who needs comfort at this time! What's this about?" But she knew what I needed, and that'll be a precious memory forever.

lightNlifesMan
12-10-2009, 06:12 PM
Michelle: It would have been tough getting through *Lauren's* last few months if it hadn't been for her, as well!
<br />
<br />The last big interaction I remember with her was on the day before she had to be intubated, when she was so full of medications as to make her loopy and "out of it" for all intents and purposes. When I had to leave for the night to go home and sleep, she gave me the biggest hug ever and patted my back, like she was trying to comfort me. I remember thinking, "She's the one who needs comfort at this time! What's this about?" But she knew what I needed, and that'll be a precious memory forever.

momtoCory
12-10-2009, 06:20 PM
Brad-Cory did the same to me to me...The day before he passed, I was sitting at his bedside and I had tears in my eyes. His CO2 levels were very high and he had been in and out of it the whole day. He reached up and wiped the tears from eyes, and asked me what was the matter. he smiled and said "Don't cry for me mom".

I am sending you a PM

momtoCory
12-10-2009, 06:20 PM
Brad-Cory did the same to me to me...The day before he passed, I was sitting at his bedside and I had tears in my eyes. His CO2 levels were very high and he had been in and out of it the whole day. He reached up and wiped the tears from eyes, and asked me what was the matter. he smiled and said "Don't cry for me mom".

I am sending you a PM

momtoCory
12-10-2009, 06:20 PM
Brad-Cory did the same to me to me...The day before he passed, I was sitting at his bedside and I had tears in my eyes. His CO2 levels were very high and he had been in and out of it the whole day. He reached up and wiped the tears from eyes, and asked me what was the matter. he smiled and said "Don't cry for me mom".

I am sending you a PM

momtoCory
12-10-2009, 06:20 PM
Brad-Cory did the same to me to me...The day before he passed, I was sitting at his bedside and I had tears in my eyes. His CO2 levels were very high and he had been in and out of it the whole day. He reached up and wiped the tears from eyes, and asked me what was the matter. he smiled and said "Don't cry for me mom".

I am sending you a PM

momtoCory
12-10-2009, 06:20 PM
Brad-Cory did the same to me to me...The day before he passed, I was sitting at his bedside and I had tears in my eyes. His CO2 levels were very high and he had been in and out of it the whole day. He reached up and wiped the tears from eyes, and asked me what was the matter. he smiled and said "Don't cry for me mom".
<br />
<br />I am sending you a PM

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12-12-2009, 06:56 AM
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princessjdc
12-12-2009, 10:25 PM
Hi Brad,

I didnt get to know Lauren very well, but we had pmed each other a few times, I had some questions and she gave me some very helpful information and I appreciated it very much. Glad to see you on here.

princessjdc
12-12-2009, 10:25 PM
Hi Brad,

I didnt get to know Lauren very well, but we had pmed each other a few times, I had some questions and she gave me some very helpful information and I appreciated it very much. Glad to see you on here.

princessjdc
12-12-2009, 10:25 PM
Hi Brad,

I didnt get to know Lauren very well, but we had pmed each other a few times, I had some questions and she gave me some very helpful information and I appreciated it very much. Glad to see you on here.

princessjdc
12-12-2009, 10:25 PM
Hi Brad,

I didnt get to know Lauren very well, but we had pmed each other a few times, I had some questions and she gave me some very helpful information and I appreciated it very much. Glad to see you on here.

princessjdc
12-12-2009, 10:25 PM
Hi Brad,
<br />
<br />I didnt get to know Lauren very well, but we had pmed each other a few times, I had some questions and she gave me some very helpful information and I appreciated it very much. Glad to see you on here.

Landy
12-13-2009, 09:23 PM
Hi Brad,

I think very fondly of Lauren. She was always more than willing to share from her wealth of information on all things CF. I was amazed at all of the time she must have spent researching items that were on her very informative blog.

I loved receiving her daily <i>Pools of Grace</i> devotions! Often times, she would tie her struggles with CF into that day's devotions, so that added an extra dimension to her devotions for me personally.

I know that she felt so very blessed to have you as her husband and I was glad that she had you to take such good care of her. I am still keeping you in my prayers, for healing and strength.

Any time I PMd her, she would get right back with me. Here is an excerpt from one of the PMs I kept that may mean something to you. It was from December '07.

<i>Our Christmas plans are almost complete. We try our best to get together with both families, but of course, sacrifices need to be made. I think we're going to my husband's grandparents on the 23rd. My husband and I have our own little tradition of eating a nice meal on our wedding china on Christmas day. We actually use the good dishes more than a lot of people I know. Why register for them if you're not going to use them?

Well, I better be off! Have a great day and I'll catch up with you later. </i>&lt;&gt;&lt;

Landy
12-13-2009, 09:23 PM
Hi Brad,

I think very fondly of Lauren. She was always more than willing to share from her wealth of information on all things CF. I was amazed at all of the time she must have spent researching items that were on her very informative blog.

I loved receiving her daily <i>Pools of Grace</i> devotions! Often times, she would tie her struggles with CF into that day's devotions, so that added an extra dimension to her devotions for me personally.

I know that she felt so very blessed to have you as her husband and I was glad that she had you to take such good care of her. I am still keeping you in my prayers, for healing and strength.

Any time I PMd her, she would get right back with me. Here is an excerpt from one of the PMs I kept that may mean something to you. It was from December '07.

<i>Our Christmas plans are almost complete. We try our best to get together with both families, but of course, sacrifices need to be made. I think we're going to my husband's grandparents on the 23rd. My husband and I have our own little tradition of eating a nice meal on our wedding china on Christmas day. We actually use the good dishes more than a lot of people I know. Why register for them if you're not going to use them?

Well, I better be off! Have a great day and I'll catch up with you later. </i>&lt;&gt;&lt;

Landy
12-13-2009, 09:23 PM
Hi Brad,

I think very fondly of Lauren. She was always more than willing to share from her wealth of information on all things CF. I was amazed at all of the time she must have spent researching items that were on her very informative blog.

I loved receiving her daily <i>Pools of Grace</i> devotions! Often times, she would tie her struggles with CF into that day's devotions, so that added an extra dimension to her devotions for me personally.

I know that she felt so very blessed to have you as her husband and I was glad that she had you to take such good care of her. I am still keeping you in my prayers, for healing and strength.

Any time I PMd her, she would get right back with me. Here is an excerpt from one of the PMs I kept that may mean something to you. It was from December '07.

<i>Our Christmas plans are almost complete. We try our best to get together with both families, but of course, sacrifices need to be made. I think we're going to my husband's grandparents on the 23rd. My husband and I have our own little tradition of eating a nice meal on our wedding china on Christmas day. We actually use the good dishes more than a lot of people I know. Why register for them if you're not going to use them?

Well, I better be off! Have a great day and I'll catch up with you later. </i>&lt;&gt;&lt;

Landy
12-13-2009, 09:23 PM
Hi Brad,

I think very fondly of Lauren. She was always more than willing to share from her wealth of information on all things CF. I was amazed at all of the time she must have spent researching items that were on her very informative blog.

I loved receiving her daily <i>Pools of Grace</i> devotions! Often times, she would tie her struggles with CF into that day's devotions, so that added an extra dimension to her devotions for me personally.

I know that she felt so very blessed to have you as her husband and I was glad that she had you to take such good care of her. I am still keeping you in my prayers, for healing and strength.

Any time I PMd her, she would get right back with me. Here is an excerpt from one of the PMs I kept that may mean something to you. It was from December '07.

<i>Our Christmas plans are almost complete. We try our best to get together with both families, but of course, sacrifices need to be made. I think we're going to my husband's grandparents on the 23rd. My husband and I have our own little tradition of eating a nice meal on our wedding china on Christmas day. We actually use the good dishes more than a lot of people I know. Why register for them if you're not going to use them?

Well, I better be off! Have a great day and I'll catch up with you later. </i>&lt;&gt;&lt;

Landy
12-13-2009, 09:23 PM
Hi Brad,
<br />
<br />I think very fondly of Lauren. She was always more than willing to share from her wealth of information on all things CF. I was amazed at all of the time she must have spent researching items that were on her very informative blog.
<br />
<br />I loved receiving her daily <i>Pools of Grace</i> devotions! Often times, she would tie her struggles with CF into that day's devotions, so that added an extra dimension to her devotions for me personally.
<br />
<br />I know that she felt so very blessed to have you as her husband and I was glad that she had you to take such good care of her. I am still keeping you in my prayers, for healing and strength.
<br />
<br />Any time I PMd her, she would get right back with me. Here is an excerpt from one of the PMs I kept that may mean something to you. It was from December '07.
<br />
<br /><i>Our Christmas plans are almost complete. We try our best to get together with both families, but of course, sacrifices need to be made. I think we're going to my husband's grandparents on the 23rd. My husband and I have our own little tradition of eating a nice meal on our wedding china on Christmas day. We actually use the good dishes more than a lot of people I know. Why register for them if you're not going to use them?
<br />
<br />Well, I better be off! Have a great day and I'll catch up with you later. </i>&lt;&gt;&lt;

JORDYSMOM
12-14-2009, 04:15 PM
I too enjoyed Lauren's Pools of Grace. She was always reminding us(in more ways than one) to take the time to use the "good dishes".

I miss her.

Stacey

JORDYSMOM
12-14-2009, 04:15 PM
I too enjoyed Lauren's Pools of Grace. She was always reminding us(in more ways than one) to take the time to use the "good dishes".

I miss her.

Stacey

JORDYSMOM
12-14-2009, 04:15 PM
I too enjoyed Lauren's Pools of Grace. She was always reminding us(in more ways than one) to take the time to use the "good dishes".

I miss her.

Stacey

JORDYSMOM
12-14-2009, 04:15 PM
I too enjoyed Lauren's Pools of Grace. She was always reminding us(in more ways than one) to take the time to use the "good dishes".

I miss her.

Stacey

JORDYSMOM
12-14-2009, 04:15 PM
I too enjoyed Lauren's Pools of Grace. She was always reminding us(in more ways than one) to take the time to use the "good dishes".
<br />
<br />I miss her.
<br />
<br />Stacey

LouLou
12-14-2009, 07:28 PM
Here are some sweet pm's from your misses. My name is also Lauren. She was a great kid.

7-5-07
Hey girl,
Just wanted to say hi and let you know that I'm keeping you and the baby in my thoughts and prayers. I hope you're not too uncomfortable as you get closer to delivery day.

Best wishes,
Lauren
------
7-28-07
Well, hello there new mommy! How are you surviving? I spent time today with one of my college friends who told me she's expecting twins. After she left I starting thinking about and praying for all the gals I know who are pregnant or newly "mommied."

I understand if you're too tired to write back. I just wanted to let you know that you're being thought about.

Warmly,
Lauren
-------
7-28-07
FROM ME
Lauren, It was so ironic that you wrote me a message today because I was planning on getting online to write you back from your 7/5 note. It really made my day back earlier this month to get that message from you and I wanted to write to let you know how happy it made me.

I was at work on that Friday. What a weird feeling it was not knowing when the baby would arrive and what delivery would be like. I was excited and could barely concentrate. Reading your message and knowing others were thinking of us comforted me. Saturday I ran errands and then Sunday I took it easy and the cleaning lady came. That night at 3 in the morning my water broke. It was a squirt with any move by me or the baby...not at all the gush I expected. I went back to bed until 8am and prayed that contractions would start on their own because I knew the doctors generally like to "meet the baby" within 24 hrs. of the water breaking due to risk of infection.

Contractions didn't start and I was placed on Pitocin at 2pm on Monday afternoon. I wondered why things weren't happening as nature intended, if there weren't medical help what was God's plan?? I thought of you and your faith and resolved that what was meant to be would be and that I was just along for the ride to bring a healthy baby boy into this world.

Things got hairy at about 1 in the morning around 11 hours after the contractions began. I was getting tired and having a difficult time resisting the urge to just push the baby out and be done with it (which was not an option because my cervix was only dialated to 8cm and pushing could have ruptured my uterus). The pain was intense with only 45 second contraction cycles. In that short amount of time I went from burning up to freezing like I was swimming in the Arctic. During this difficult 3 hour period (where I was stuck at 8cm without an epidural) you again popped into my mind. I don't know how to put it into words but I respect your grace under pressure. Cf has socked it to you but you manage very well. You empower people through your writing and you enjoy the little things in life. For some reason this comforted me in that difficult time.

I'm glad you're part of the site :-)

So how are you?

All the best,
Lauren
-----
7-29-07
Lauren,
Wow. I am so touched and very moved by your words. Thank you for sharing with me how the whole thing went. Many of my friends who've had kids have also expressed how much they wanted things to go "as nature intended" and feel like they're somehow missing out on the experience if they don't deliver vaginally. I figure that the experience is really about seeing that little life for the first time and being able to hold that child in your arms. To oversimplify a metaphor, I guess I'd say that whether you take the elevator or the stairs, the point is that you arrive at the top floor.

I'm so glad that you have been comforted and encouraged by me in different ways. That's really all I want to be able to do in life--to be a blessing of sorts to anyone who crosses my path. It's interesting that you said "grace" under pressure. My middle name is Grace, and since Lauren means "victorious" I figure I should live up to my name.

Things are going pretty well here. As you saw on the forums I had a kick-butt great appt. this week. We went out to dinner tonight with my in-laws to celebrate a belated birthday for my husband. Good stuff. I've been getting a little bit more freelance work tossed in my direction, so it's nice to have something to keep me occupied during the day.

Thanks again for writing. Be sure to kiss the baby for me!

-Lauren
-----
9-11-07
Happy Birthday to you! I think of you a lot and pray for you whenever your name comes to mind. I hope you're having a wonderful birthday celebration. I know this year is extra special since it's your first birthday as a MOMMY! That's certainly reason to be joyful.

Consider yourself {hugged}, and give that sweet baby of yours a great big cuddle and a kiss.

Here's to many more years spent doing the things that make life worth living,

Lauren
-----
9-12-07
What is it about folded laundry that makes everything feel "together." I love it when laundry is folded and put away. I spent some time doing that on Monday and it just makes me feel quite settled. I love keeping a nice home for my husband

I hope the sleep training goes well! One of my dearest friends, Jen, called last week and told me "Hannah learned to roll over and sleep on her tummy!" Little Hannah has been having a lot of trouble sleeping through the night, and now it's not an issue! Funny how little things can make a difference.

Thanks for sharing a bit more about what your husband is up to. I'm sure glad you have each other. It's great to have a husband who is good at what he does. I hope all the preparation for the pharma job will pay off. I'm sure he'll find a position that's a great fit for all of you.

My husband started his new job last week. He's such a happier person now that he's back in a somewhat academic setting. (He got a job at UC San Diego with a research group there.) He's a natural brain, and his old job wasn't stimulating him enough.

As for me, I've got all the stimulation I can handle right now. Ha! I'm still working out and doing various writing projects. I've got a HUGE transcription project on my desk right now. 800+ pages! Wowzers! It's interesting stuff though, not too dry, which makes the work go faster.

Gotta run, the bunny needs some exercise and I need a snack.

It was good to hear from you!

-Lauren
-----
A REPLY FROM HER AFTER MY SON WAS FOUND TO HAVE 2 cF MUTATIONS
Hi Lauren,
I read your post and wanted to give you a great big hug. Your line "I thought I was a responsible CFer" got me. You ARE a responsible CFer. You've having your child tested now, and are taking the steps to care for him NOW. That's exactly what a responsible person does.

Please don't beat yourself up over this. (Easier said than done, I know.) You have a wonderful supportive husband, a good knowledge of CF, and are going to be great at anticipating what your child needs. You have the experience necessary to cope with this event in life.

Try not to worry yourself by playing the game of "If only" or "what if." Just as you do with your own health, take each day as it comes. God will give you the mercy and grace to help you in your time of need.

We are all here for you as well. You can do this. Give yourself time to adjust, and go ahead and cry. It's a good way to release frustration. You are an incredible young woman, and uniquely equipped for this battle. You can do it. God will help. My husband and I will be praying for your family so much.

Warmly,
Lauren

LouLou
12-14-2009, 07:28 PM
Here are some sweet pm's from your misses. My name is also Lauren. She was a great kid.

7-5-07
Hey girl,
Just wanted to say hi and let you know that I'm keeping you and the baby in my thoughts and prayers. I hope you're not too uncomfortable as you get closer to delivery day.

Best wishes,
Lauren
------
7-28-07
Well, hello there new mommy! How are you surviving? I spent time today with one of my college friends who told me she's expecting twins. After she left I starting thinking about and praying for all the gals I know who are pregnant or newly "mommied."

I understand if you're too tired to write back. I just wanted to let you know that you're being thought about.

Warmly,
Lauren
-------
7-28-07
FROM ME
Lauren, It was so ironic that you wrote me a message today because I was planning on getting online to write you back from your 7/5 note. It really made my day back earlier this month to get that message from you and I wanted to write to let you know how happy it made me.

I was at work on that Friday. What a weird feeling it was not knowing when the baby would arrive and what delivery would be like. I was excited and could barely concentrate. Reading your message and knowing others were thinking of us comforted me. Saturday I ran errands and then Sunday I took it easy and the cleaning lady came. That night at 3 in the morning my water broke. It was a squirt with any move by me or the baby...not at all the gush I expected. I went back to bed until 8am and prayed that contractions would start on their own because I knew the doctors generally like to "meet the baby" within 24 hrs. of the water breaking due to risk of infection.

Contractions didn't start and I was placed on Pitocin at 2pm on Monday afternoon. I wondered why things weren't happening as nature intended, if there weren't medical help what was God's plan?? I thought of you and your faith and resolved that what was meant to be would be and that I was just along for the ride to bring a healthy baby boy into this world.

Things got hairy at about 1 in the morning around 11 hours after the contractions began. I was getting tired and having a difficult time resisting the urge to just push the baby out and be done with it (which was not an option because my cervix was only dialated to 8cm and pushing could have ruptured my uterus). The pain was intense with only 45 second contraction cycles. In that short amount of time I went from burning up to freezing like I was swimming in the Arctic. During this difficult 3 hour period (where I was stuck at 8cm without an epidural) you again popped into my mind. I don't know how to put it into words but I respect your grace under pressure. Cf has socked it to you but you manage very well. You empower people through your writing and you enjoy the little things in life. For some reason this comforted me in that difficult time.

I'm glad you're part of the site :-)

So how are you?

All the best,
Lauren
-----
7-29-07
Lauren,
Wow. I am so touched and very moved by your words. Thank you for sharing with me how the whole thing went. Many of my friends who've had kids have also expressed how much they wanted things to go "as nature intended" and feel like they're somehow missing out on the experience if they don't deliver vaginally. I figure that the experience is really about seeing that little life for the first time and being able to hold that child in your arms. To oversimplify a metaphor, I guess I'd say that whether you take the elevator or the stairs, the point is that you arrive at the top floor.

I'm so glad that you have been comforted and encouraged by me in different ways. That's really all I want to be able to do in life--to be a blessing of sorts to anyone who crosses my path. It's interesting that you said "grace" under pressure. My middle name is Grace, and since Lauren means "victorious" I figure I should live up to my name.

Things are going pretty well here. As you saw on the forums I had a kick-butt great appt. this week. We went out to dinner tonight with my in-laws to celebrate a belated birthday for my husband. Good stuff. I've been getting a little bit more freelance work tossed in my direction, so it's nice to have something to keep me occupied during the day.

Thanks again for writing. Be sure to kiss the baby for me!

-Lauren
-----
9-11-07
Happy Birthday to you! I think of you a lot and pray for you whenever your name comes to mind. I hope you're having a wonderful birthday celebration. I know this year is extra special since it's your first birthday as a MOMMY! That's certainly reason to be joyful.

Consider yourself {hugged}, and give that sweet baby of yours a great big cuddle and a kiss.

Here's to many more years spent doing the things that make life worth living,

Lauren
-----
9-12-07
What is it about folded laundry that makes everything feel "together." I love it when laundry is folded and put away. I spent some time doing that on Monday and it just makes me feel quite settled. I love keeping a nice home for my husband

I hope the sleep training goes well! One of my dearest friends, Jen, called last week and told me "Hannah learned to roll over and sleep on her tummy!" Little Hannah has been having a lot of trouble sleeping through the night, and now it's not an issue! Funny how little things can make a difference.

Thanks for sharing a bit more about what your husband is up to. I'm sure glad you have each other. It's great to have a husband who is good at what he does. I hope all the preparation for the pharma job will pay off. I'm sure he'll find a position that's a great fit for all of you.

My husband started his new job last week. He's such a happier person now that he's back in a somewhat academic setting. (He got a job at UC San Diego with a research group there.) He's a natural brain, and his old job wasn't stimulating him enough.

As for me, I've got all the stimulation I can handle right now. Ha! I'm still working out and doing various writing projects. I've got a HUGE transcription project on my desk right now. 800+ pages! Wowzers! It's interesting stuff though, not too dry, which makes the work go faster.

Gotta run, the bunny needs some exercise and I need a snack.

It was good to hear from you!

-Lauren
-----
A REPLY FROM HER AFTER MY SON WAS FOUND TO HAVE 2 cF MUTATIONS
Hi Lauren,
I read your post and wanted to give you a great big hug. Your line "I thought I was a responsible CFer" got me. You ARE a responsible CFer. You've having your child tested now, and are taking the steps to care for him NOW. That's exactly what a responsible person does.

Please don't beat yourself up over this. (Easier said than done, I know.) You have a wonderful supportive husband, a good knowledge of CF, and are going to be great at anticipating what your child needs. You have the experience necessary to cope with this event in life.

Try not to worry yourself by playing the game of "If only" or "what if." Just as you do with your own health, take each day as it comes. God will give you the mercy and grace to help you in your time of need.

We are all here for you as well. You can do this. Give yourself time to adjust, and go ahead and cry. It's a good way to release frustration. You are an incredible young woman, and uniquely equipped for this battle. You can do it. God will help. My husband and I will be praying for your family so much.

Warmly,
Lauren

LouLou
12-14-2009, 07:28 PM
Here are some sweet pm's from your misses. My name is also Lauren. She was a great kid.

7-5-07
Hey girl,
Just wanted to say hi and let you know that I'm keeping you and the baby in my thoughts and prayers. I hope you're not too uncomfortable as you get closer to delivery day.

Best wishes,
Lauren
------
7-28-07
Well, hello there new mommy! How are you surviving? I spent time today with one of my college friends who told me she's expecting twins. After she left I starting thinking about and praying for all the gals I know who are pregnant or newly "mommied."

I understand if you're too tired to write back. I just wanted to let you know that you're being thought about.

Warmly,
Lauren
-------
7-28-07
FROM ME
Lauren, It was so ironic that you wrote me a message today because I was planning on getting online to write you back from your 7/5 note. It really made my day back earlier this month to get that message from you and I wanted to write to let you know how happy it made me.

I was at work on that Friday. What a weird feeling it was not knowing when the baby would arrive and what delivery would be like. I was excited and could barely concentrate. Reading your message and knowing others were thinking of us comforted me. Saturday I ran errands and then Sunday I took it easy and the cleaning lady came. That night at 3 in the morning my water broke. It was a squirt with any move by me or the baby...not at all the gush I expected. I went back to bed until 8am and prayed that contractions would start on their own because I knew the doctors generally like to "meet the baby" within 24 hrs. of the water breaking due to risk of infection.

Contractions didn't start and I was placed on Pitocin at 2pm on Monday afternoon. I wondered why things weren't happening as nature intended, if there weren't medical help what was God's plan?? I thought of you and your faith and resolved that what was meant to be would be and that I was just along for the ride to bring a healthy baby boy into this world.

Things got hairy at about 1 in the morning around 11 hours after the contractions began. I was getting tired and having a difficult time resisting the urge to just push the baby out and be done with it (which was not an option because my cervix was only dialated to 8cm and pushing could have ruptured my uterus). The pain was intense with only 45 second contraction cycles. In that short amount of time I went from burning up to freezing like I was swimming in the Arctic. During this difficult 3 hour period (where I was stuck at 8cm without an epidural) you again popped into my mind. I don't know how to put it into words but I respect your grace under pressure. Cf has socked it to you but you manage very well. You empower people through your writing and you enjoy the little things in life. For some reason this comforted me in that difficult time.

I'm glad you're part of the site :-)

So how are you?

All the best,
Lauren
-----
7-29-07
Lauren,
Wow. I am so touched and very moved by your words. Thank you for sharing with me how the whole thing went. Many of my friends who've had kids have also expressed how much they wanted things to go "as nature intended" and feel like they're somehow missing out on the experience if they don't deliver vaginally. I figure that the experience is really about seeing that little life for the first time and being able to hold that child in your arms. To oversimplify a metaphor, I guess I'd say that whether you take the elevator or the stairs, the point is that you arrive at the top floor.

I'm so glad that you have been comforted and encouraged by me in different ways. That's really all I want to be able to do in life--to be a blessing of sorts to anyone who crosses my path. It's interesting that you said "grace" under pressure. My middle name is Grace, and since Lauren means "victorious" I figure I should live up to my name.

Things are going pretty well here. As you saw on the forums I had a kick-butt great appt. this week. We went out to dinner tonight with my in-laws to celebrate a belated birthday for my husband. Good stuff. I've been getting a little bit more freelance work tossed in my direction, so it's nice to have something to keep me occupied during the day.

Thanks again for writing. Be sure to kiss the baby for me!

-Lauren
-----
9-11-07
Happy Birthday to you! I think of you a lot and pray for you whenever your name comes to mind. I hope you're having a wonderful birthday celebration. I know this year is extra special since it's your first birthday as a MOMMY! That's certainly reason to be joyful.

Consider yourself {hugged}, and give that sweet baby of yours a great big cuddle and a kiss.

Here's to many more years spent doing the things that make life worth living,

Lauren
-----
9-12-07
What is it about folded laundry that makes everything feel "together." I love it when laundry is folded and put away. I spent some time doing that on Monday and it just makes me feel quite settled. I love keeping a nice home for my husband

I hope the sleep training goes well! One of my dearest friends, Jen, called last week and told me "Hannah learned to roll over and sleep on her tummy!" Little Hannah has been having a lot of trouble sleeping through the night, and now it's not an issue! Funny how little things can make a difference.

Thanks for sharing a bit more about what your husband is up to. I'm sure glad you have each other. It's great to have a husband who is good at what he does. I hope all the preparation for the pharma job will pay off. I'm sure he'll find a position that's a great fit for all of you.

My husband started his new job last week. He's such a happier person now that he's back in a somewhat academic setting. (He got a job at UC San Diego with a research group there.) He's a natural brain, and his old job wasn't stimulating him enough.

As for me, I've got all the stimulation I can handle right now. Ha! I'm still working out and doing various writing projects. I've got a HUGE transcription project on my desk right now. 800+ pages! Wowzers! It's interesting stuff though, not too dry, which makes the work go faster.

Gotta run, the bunny needs some exercise and I need a snack.

It was good to hear from you!

-Lauren
-----
A REPLY FROM HER AFTER MY SON WAS FOUND TO HAVE 2 cF MUTATIONS
Hi Lauren,
I read your post and wanted to give you a great big hug. Your line "I thought I was a responsible CFer" got me. You ARE a responsible CFer. You've having your child tested now, and are taking the steps to care for him NOW. That's exactly what a responsible person does.

Please don't beat yourself up over this. (Easier said than done, I know.) You have a wonderful supportive husband, a good knowledge of CF, and are going to be great at anticipating what your child needs. You have the experience necessary to cope with this event in life.

Try not to worry yourself by playing the game of "If only" or "what if." Just as you do with your own health, take each day as it comes. God will give you the mercy and grace to help you in your time of need.

We are all here for you as well. You can do this. Give yourself time to adjust, and go ahead and cry. It's a good way to release frustration. You are an incredible young woman, and uniquely equipped for this battle. You can do it. God will help. My husband and I will be praying for your family so much.

Warmly,
Lauren

LouLou
12-14-2009, 07:28 PM
Here are some sweet pm's from your misses. My name is also Lauren. She was a great kid.

7-5-07
Hey girl,
Just wanted to say hi and let you know that I'm keeping you and the baby in my thoughts and prayers. I hope you're not too uncomfortable as you get closer to delivery day.

Best wishes,
Lauren
------
7-28-07
Well, hello there new mommy! How are you surviving? I spent time today with one of my college friends who told me she's expecting twins. After she left I starting thinking about and praying for all the gals I know who are pregnant or newly "mommied."

I understand if you're too tired to write back. I just wanted to let you know that you're being thought about.

Warmly,
Lauren
-------
7-28-07
FROM ME
Lauren, It was so ironic that you wrote me a message today because I was planning on getting online to write you back from your 7/5 note. It really made my day back earlier this month to get that message from you and I wanted to write to let you know how happy it made me.

I was at work on that Friday. What a weird feeling it was not knowing when the baby would arrive and what delivery would be like. I was excited and could barely concentrate. Reading your message and knowing others were thinking of us comforted me. Saturday I ran errands and then Sunday I took it easy and the cleaning lady came. That night at 3 in the morning my water broke. It was a squirt with any move by me or the baby...not at all the gush I expected. I went back to bed until 8am and prayed that contractions would start on their own because I knew the doctors generally like to "meet the baby" within 24 hrs. of the water breaking due to risk of infection.

Contractions didn't start and I was placed on Pitocin at 2pm on Monday afternoon. I wondered why things weren't happening as nature intended, if there weren't medical help what was God's plan?? I thought of you and your faith and resolved that what was meant to be would be and that I was just along for the ride to bring a healthy baby boy into this world.

Things got hairy at about 1 in the morning around 11 hours after the contractions began. I was getting tired and having a difficult time resisting the urge to just push the baby out and be done with it (which was not an option because my cervix was only dialated to 8cm and pushing could have ruptured my uterus). The pain was intense with only 45 second contraction cycles. In that short amount of time I went from burning up to freezing like I was swimming in the Arctic. During this difficult 3 hour period (where I was stuck at 8cm without an epidural) you again popped into my mind. I don't know how to put it into words but I respect your grace under pressure. Cf has socked it to you but you manage very well. You empower people through your writing and you enjoy the little things in life. For some reason this comforted me in that difficult time.

I'm glad you're part of the site :-)

So how are you?

All the best,
Lauren
-----
7-29-07
Lauren,
Wow. I am so touched and very moved by your words. Thank you for sharing with me how the whole thing went. Many of my friends who've had kids have also expressed how much they wanted things to go "as nature intended" and feel like they're somehow missing out on the experience if they don't deliver vaginally. I figure that the experience is really about seeing that little life for the first time and being able to hold that child in your arms. To oversimplify a metaphor, I guess I'd say that whether you take the elevator or the stairs, the point is that you arrive at the top floor.

I'm so glad that you have been comforted and encouraged by me in different ways. That's really all I want to be able to do in life--to be a blessing of sorts to anyone who crosses my path. It's interesting that you said "grace" under pressure. My middle name is Grace, and since Lauren means "victorious" I figure I should live up to my name.

Things are going pretty well here. As you saw on the forums I had a kick-butt great appt. this week. We went out to dinner tonight with my in-laws to celebrate a belated birthday for my husband. Good stuff. I've been getting a little bit more freelance work tossed in my direction, so it's nice to have something to keep me occupied during the day.

Thanks again for writing. Be sure to kiss the baby for me!

-Lauren
-----
9-11-07
Happy Birthday to you! I think of you a lot and pray for you whenever your name comes to mind. I hope you're having a wonderful birthday celebration. I know this year is extra special since it's your first birthday as a MOMMY! That's certainly reason to be joyful.

Consider yourself {hugged}, and give that sweet baby of yours a great big cuddle and a kiss.

Here's to many more years spent doing the things that make life worth living,

Lauren
-----
9-12-07
What is it about folded laundry that makes everything feel "together." I love it when laundry is folded and put away. I spent some time doing that on Monday and it just makes me feel quite settled. I love keeping a nice home for my husband

I hope the sleep training goes well! One of my dearest friends, Jen, called last week and told me "Hannah learned to roll over and sleep on her tummy!" Little Hannah has been having a lot of trouble sleeping through the night, and now it's not an issue! Funny how little things can make a difference.

Thanks for sharing a bit more about what your husband is up to. I'm sure glad you have each other. It's great to have a husband who is good at what he does. I hope all the preparation for the pharma job will pay off. I'm sure he'll find a position that's a great fit for all of you.

My husband started his new job last week. He's such a happier person now that he's back in a somewhat academic setting. (He got a job at UC San Diego with a research group there.) He's a natural brain, and his old job wasn't stimulating him enough.

As for me, I've got all the stimulation I can handle right now. Ha! I'm still working out and doing various writing projects. I've got a HUGE transcription project on my desk right now. 800+ pages! Wowzers! It's interesting stuff though, not too dry, which makes the work go faster.

Gotta run, the bunny needs some exercise and I need a snack.

It was good to hear from you!

-Lauren
-----
A REPLY FROM HER AFTER MY SON WAS FOUND TO HAVE 2 cF MUTATIONS
Hi Lauren,
I read your post and wanted to give you a great big hug. Your line "I thought I was a responsible CFer" got me. You ARE a responsible CFer. You've having your child tested now, and are taking the steps to care for him NOW. That's exactly what a responsible person does.

Please don't beat yourself up over this. (Easier said than done, I know.) You have a wonderful supportive husband, a good knowledge of CF, and are going to be great at anticipating what your child needs. You have the experience necessary to cope with this event in life.

Try not to worry yourself by playing the game of "If only" or "what if." Just as you do with your own health, take each day as it comes. God will give you the mercy and grace to help you in your time of need.

We are all here for you as well. You can do this. Give yourself time to adjust, and go ahead and cry. It's a good way to release frustration. You are an incredible young woman, and uniquely equipped for this battle. You can do it. God will help. My husband and I will be praying for your family so much.

Warmly,
Lauren

LouLou
12-14-2009, 07:28 PM
Here are some sweet pm's from your misses. My name is also Lauren. She was a great kid.
<br />
<br />7-5-07
<br />Hey girl,
<br />Just wanted to say hi and let you know that I'm keeping you and the baby in my thoughts and prayers. I hope you're not too uncomfortable as you get closer to delivery day.
<br />
<br />Best wishes,
<br />Lauren
<br />------
<br />7-28-07
<br />Well, hello there new mommy! How are you surviving? I spent time today with one of my college friends who told me she's expecting twins. After she left I starting thinking about and praying for all the gals I know who are pregnant or newly "mommied."
<br />
<br />I understand if you're too tired to write back. I just wanted to let you know that you're being thought about.
<br />
<br />Warmly,
<br />Lauren
<br />-------
<br />7-28-07
<br />FROM ME
<br />Lauren, It was so ironic that you wrote me a message today because I was planning on getting online to write you back from your 7/5 note. It really made my day back earlier this month to get that message from you and I wanted to write to let you know how happy it made me.
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<br />I was at work on that Friday. What a weird feeling it was not knowing when the baby would arrive and what delivery would be like. I was excited and could barely concentrate. Reading your message and knowing others were thinking of us comforted me. Saturday I ran errands and then Sunday I took it easy and the cleaning lady came. That night at 3 in the morning my water broke. It was a squirt with any move by me or the baby...not at all the gush I expected. I went back to bed until 8am and prayed that contractions would start on their own because I knew the doctors generally like to "meet the baby" within 24 hrs. of the water breaking due to risk of infection.
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<br />Contractions didn't start and I was placed on Pitocin at 2pm on Monday afternoon. I wondered why things weren't happening as nature intended, if there weren't medical help what was God's plan?? I thought of you and your faith and resolved that what was meant to be would be and that I was just along for the ride to bring a healthy baby boy into this world.
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<br />Things got hairy at about 1 in the morning around 11 hours after the contractions began. I was getting tired and having a difficult time resisting the urge to just push the baby out and be done with it (which was not an option because my cervix was only dialated to 8cm and pushing could have ruptured my uterus). The pain was intense with only 45 second contraction cycles. In that short amount of time I went from burning up to freezing like I was swimming in the Arctic. During this difficult 3 hour period (where I was stuck at 8cm without an epidural) you again popped into my mind. I don't know how to put it into words but I respect your grace under pressure. Cf has socked it to you but you manage very well. You empower people through your writing and you enjoy the little things in life. For some reason this comforted me in that difficult time.
<br />
<br />I'm glad you're part of the site :-)
<br />
<br />So how are you?
<br />
<br />All the best,
<br />Lauren
<br />-----
<br />7-29-07
<br />Lauren,
<br />Wow. I am so touched and very moved by your words. Thank you for sharing with me how the whole thing went. Many of my friends who've had kids have also expressed how much they wanted things to go "as nature intended" and feel like they're somehow missing out on the experience if they don't deliver vaginally. I figure that the experience is really about seeing that little life for the first time and being able to hold that child in your arms. To oversimplify a metaphor, I guess I'd say that whether you take the elevator or the stairs, the point is that you arrive at the top floor.
<br />
<br />I'm so glad that you have been comforted and encouraged by me in different ways. That's really all I want to be able to do in life--to be a blessing of sorts to anyone who crosses my path. It's interesting that you said "grace" under pressure. My middle name is Grace, and since Lauren means "victorious" I figure I should live up to my name.
<br />
<br />Things are going pretty well here. As you saw on the forums I had a kick-butt great appt. this week. We went out to dinner tonight with my in-laws to celebrate a belated birthday for my husband. Good stuff. I've been getting a little bit more freelance work tossed in my direction, so it's nice to have something to keep me occupied during the day.
<br />
<br />Thanks again for writing. Be sure to kiss the baby for me!
<br />
<br />-Lauren
<br />-----
<br />9-11-07
<br />Happy Birthday to you! I think of you a lot and pray for you whenever your name comes to mind. I hope you're having a wonderful birthday celebration. I know this year is extra special since it's your first birthday as a MOMMY! That's certainly reason to be joyful.
<br />
<br />Consider yourself {hugged}, and give that sweet baby of yours a great big cuddle and a kiss.
<br />
<br />Here's to many more years spent doing the things that make life worth living,
<br />
<br />Lauren
<br />-----
<br />9-12-07
<br />What is it about folded laundry that makes everything feel "together." I love it when laundry is folded and put away. I spent some time doing that on Monday and it just makes me feel quite settled. I love keeping a nice home for my husband
<br />
<br />I hope the sleep training goes well! One of my dearest friends, Jen, called last week and told me "Hannah learned to roll over and sleep on her tummy!" Little Hannah has been having a lot of trouble sleeping through the night, and now it's not an issue! Funny how little things can make a difference.
<br />
<br />Thanks for sharing a bit more about what your husband is up to. I'm sure glad you have each other. It's great to have a husband who is good at what he does. I hope all the preparation for the pharma job will pay off. I'm sure he'll find a position that's a great fit for all of you.
<br />
<br />My husband started his new job last week. He's such a happier person now that he's back in a somewhat academic setting. (He got a job at UC San Diego with a research group there.) He's a natural brain, and his old job wasn't stimulating him enough.
<br />
<br />As for me, I've got all the stimulation I can handle right now. Ha! I'm still working out and doing various writing projects. I've got a HUGE transcription project on my desk right now. 800+ pages! Wowzers! It's interesting stuff though, not too dry, which makes the work go faster.
<br />
<br />Gotta run, the bunny needs some exercise and I need a snack.
<br />
<br />It was good to hear from you!
<br />
<br />-Lauren
<br />-----
<br />A REPLY FROM HER AFTER MY SON WAS FOUND TO HAVE 2 cF MUTATIONS
<br />Hi Lauren,
<br />I read your post and wanted to give you a great big hug. Your line "I thought I was a responsible CFer" got me. You ARE a responsible CFer. You've having your child tested now, and are taking the steps to care for him NOW. That's exactly what a responsible person does.
<br />
<br />Please don't beat yourself up over this. (Easier said than done, I know.) You have a wonderful supportive husband, a good knowledge of CF, and are going to be great at anticipating what your child needs. You have the experience necessary to cope with this event in life.
<br />
<br />Try not to worry yourself by playing the game of "If only" or "what if." Just as you do with your own health, take each day as it comes. God will give you the mercy and grace to help you in your time of need.
<br />
<br />We are all here for you as well. You can do this. Give yourself time to adjust, and go ahead and cry. It's a good way to release frustration. You are an incredible young woman, and uniquely equipped for this battle. You can do it. God will help. My husband and I will be praying for your family so much.
<br />
<br />Warmly,
<br />Lauren

lmattaway
12-21-2009, 09:26 PM
Sigh, I just went in to clean out my contacts in my gmail account and saw Lauren's address. I didn't have the heart to remove it. It just serves as a nice reminder for me to continuing praying for her family.

lmattaway
12-21-2009, 09:26 PM
Sigh, I just went in to clean out my contacts in my gmail account and saw Lauren's address. I didn't have the heart to remove it. It just serves as a nice reminder for me to continuing praying for her family.

lmattaway
12-21-2009, 09:26 PM
Sigh, I just went in to clean out my contacts in my gmail account and saw Lauren's address. I didn't have the heart to remove it. It just serves as a nice reminder for me to continuing praying for her family.

lmattaway
12-21-2009, 09:26 PM
Sigh, I just went in to clean out my contacts in my gmail account and saw Lauren's address. I didn't have the heart to remove it. It just serves as a nice reminder for me to continuing praying for her family.

lmattaway
12-21-2009, 09:26 PM
Sigh, I just went in to clean out my contacts in my gmail account and saw Lauren's address. I didn't have the heart to remove it. It just serves as a nice reminder for me to continuing praying for her family.

beleache
12-22-2009, 10:21 AM
Hi Brad,

Lauren & I shared many PM's .. She always had a kind word & was an inspiration to many of us here at CF.com..

She will be greatly missed <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-sad.gif" border="0"> I feel blessed to have know her & loved that we both had a religious connection as many of us have here..

I hope you continue to pop in & let us know how you are doing..

Take care & God Bless you.. <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0"> joni


I just had to add this :

I was checking out some of our PM's to each other before typing this reply.. After posting it a PM popped up.. It was the last one i got from Lauren thanking me and asking me how i am !!! I love getting a sign like that .

Thank you Lauren <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0"> joni

beleache
12-22-2009, 10:21 AM
Hi Brad,

Lauren & I shared many PM's .. She always had a kind word & was an inspiration to many of us here at CF.com..

She will be greatly missed <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-sad.gif" border="0"> I feel blessed to have know her & loved that we both had a religious connection as many of us have here..

I hope you continue to pop in & let us know how you are doing..

Take care & God Bless you.. <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0"> joni


I just had to add this :

I was checking out some of our PM's to each other before typing this reply.. After posting it a PM popped up.. It was the last one i got from Lauren thanking me and asking me how i am !!! I love getting a sign like that .

Thank you Lauren <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0"> joni

beleache
12-22-2009, 10:21 AM
Hi Brad,

Lauren & I shared many PM's .. She always had a kind word & was an inspiration to many of us here at CF.com..

She will be greatly missed <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-sad.gif" border="0"> I feel blessed to have know her & loved that we both had a religious connection as many of us have here..

I hope you continue to pop in & let us know how you are doing..

Take care & God Bless you.. <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0"> joni


I just had to add this :

I was checking out some of our PM's to each other before typing this reply.. After posting it a PM popped up.. It was the last one i got from Lauren thanking me and asking me how i am !!! I love getting a sign like that .

Thank you Lauren <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0"> joni

beleache
12-22-2009, 10:21 AM
Hi Brad,

Lauren & I shared many PM's .. She always had a kind word & was an inspiration to many of us here at CF.com..

She will be greatly missed <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-sad.gif" border="0"> I feel blessed to have know her & loved that we both had a religious connection as many of us have here..

I hope you continue to pop in & let us know how you are doing..

Take care & God Bless you.. <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0"> joni


I just had to add this :

I was checking out some of our PM's to each other before typing this reply.. After posting it a PM popped up.. It was the last one i got from Lauren thanking me and asking me how i am !!! I love getting a sign like that .

Thank you Lauren <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0"> joni

beleache
12-22-2009, 10:21 AM
Hi Brad,
<br />
<br /> Lauren & I shared many PM's .. She always had a kind word & was an inspiration to many of us here at CF.com..
<br />
<br /> She will be greatly missed <img src="i/expressions/face-icon-small-sad.gif" border="0"> I feel blessed to have know her & loved that we both had a religious connection as many of us have here..
<br />
<br />I hope you continue to pop in & let us know how you are doing..
<br />
<br /> Take care & God Bless you.. <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0"> joni
<br />
<br />
<br /> I just had to add this :
<br />
<br /> I was checking out some of our PM's to each other before typing this reply.. After posting it a PM popped up.. It was the last one i got from Lauren thanking me and asking me how i am !!! I love getting a sign like that .
<br />
<br /> Thank you Lauren <img src="i/expressions/heart.gif" border="0"> joni

Imogene
12-22-2009, 10:28 AM
I can't help but think as I read through LouLou's emails of Bob Dylan's words:

No Fear
No Envy
No Meanness

These three gifts she brought us...<a target=_blank class=ftalternatingbarlinklarge href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JcXW0Se4HMs">Little Drummer</a>

Jeanne

Imogene
12-22-2009, 10:28 AM
I can't help but think as I read through LouLou's emails of Bob Dylan's words:

No Fear
No Envy
No Meanness

These three gifts she brought us...<a target=_blank class=ftalternatingbarlinklarge href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JcXW0Se4HMs">Little Drummer</a>

Jeanne

Imogene
12-22-2009, 10:28 AM
I can't help but think as I read through LouLou's emails of Bob Dylan's words:

No Fear
No Envy
No Meanness

These three gifts she brought us...<a target=_blank class=ftalternatingbarlinklarge href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JcXW0Se4HMs">Little Drummer</a>

Jeanne

Imogene
12-22-2009, 10:28 AM
I can't help but think as I read through LouLou's emails of Bob Dylan's words:

No Fear
No Envy
No Meanness

These three gifts she brought us...<a target=_blank class=ftalternatingbarlinklarge href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JcXW0Se4HMs">Little Drummer</a>

Jeanne

Imogene
12-22-2009, 10:28 AM
I can't help but think as I read through LouLou's emails of Bob Dylan's words:
<br />
<br />No Fear
<br />No Envy
<br />No Meanness
<br />
<br />These three gifts she brought us...<a target=_blank class=ftalternatingbarlinklarge href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JcXW0Se4HMs">Little Drummer</a>
<br />
<br />Jeanne

ElizabethlovesChris
02-12-2010, 08:21 PM
Hi Brad,
I have not been on the site in quite a while, and I just saw of Lauren's passing. I have no words, except I'm so very very sorry. As another CF spouse, it is like a huge punch in the heart to see your words and imagine what your journey has been like the last few months. I didn't know Lauren extremely well, as I was more of a 'lurker' than a 'poster' here, but I always knew her posts without having to even read her name necessarily - they were full of wisdom, with sincerity and caring, but also with a touch of boldness that I always admired in her. She was so smart and knew where she stood on the issues, and I love that she was never afraid to let people know when they needed a bit of practical wisdom... if that makes sense.

But most of all, her great love of you, Brad, was palpable. I suppose you can feel it when another CF couple has the type of love that you two have (and that I feel I have with my CF husband Chris) - the love that carries you through the tough times and that is truly the reason for living. She was a beautiful person and I hate this disease for robbing her of the many, many more years she deserved on this earth. I hope you are wading through these last few months with her love and laughter tucked away in your heart. I truly can't quite wrap my mind around the day when I will have to live without my Chris, despite it being on the edge of my mind every single day.

I send you a long, tearful hug and my wishes that your Lauren will never be forgotten.

ElizabethlovesChris
02-12-2010, 08:21 PM
Hi Brad,
I have not been on the site in quite a while, and I just saw of Lauren's passing. I have no words, except I'm so very very sorry. As another CF spouse, it is like a huge punch in the heart to see your words and imagine what your journey has been like the last few months. I didn't know Lauren extremely well, as I was more of a 'lurker' than a 'poster' here, but I always knew her posts without having to even read her name necessarily - they were full of wisdom, with sincerity and caring, but also with a touch of boldness that I always admired in her. She was so smart and knew where she stood on the issues, and I love that she was never afraid to let people know when they needed a bit of practical wisdom... if that makes sense.

But most of all, her great love of you, Brad, was palpable. I suppose you can feel it when another CF couple has the type of love that you two have (and that I feel I have with my CF husband Chris) - the love that carries you through the tough times and that is truly the reason for living. She was a beautiful person and I hate this disease for robbing her of the many, many more years she deserved on this earth. I hope you are wading through these last few months with her love and laughter tucked away in your heart. I truly can't quite wrap my mind around the day when I will have to live without my Chris, despite it being on the edge of my mind every single day.

I send you a long, tearful hug and my wishes that your Lauren will never be forgotten.

ElizabethlovesChris
02-12-2010, 08:21 PM
Hi Brad,
I have not been on the site in quite a while, and I just saw of Lauren's passing. I have no words, except I'm so very very sorry. As another CF spouse, it is like a huge punch in the heart to see your words and imagine what your journey has been like the last few months. I didn't know Lauren extremely well, as I was more of a 'lurker' than a 'poster' here, but I always knew her posts without having to even read her name necessarily - they were full of wisdom, with sincerity and caring, but also with a touch of boldness that I always admired in her. She was so smart and knew where she stood on the issues, and I love that she was never afraid to let people know when they needed a bit of practical wisdom... if that makes sense.

But most of all, her great love of you, Brad, was palpable. I suppose you can feel it when another CF couple has the type of love that you two have (and that I feel I have with my CF husband Chris) - the love that carries you through the tough times and that is truly the reason for living. She was a beautiful person and I hate this disease for robbing her of the many, many more years she deserved on this earth. I hope you are wading through these last few months with her love and laughter tucked away in your heart. I truly can't quite wrap my mind around the day when I will have to live without my Chris, despite it being on the edge of my mind every single day.

I send you a long, tearful hug and my wishes that your Lauren will never be forgotten.

ElizabethlovesChris
02-12-2010, 08:21 PM
Hi Brad,
I have not been on the site in quite a while, and I just saw of Lauren's passing. I have no words, except I'm so very very sorry. As another CF spouse, it is like a huge punch in the heart to see your words and imagine what your journey has been like the last few months. I didn't know Lauren extremely well, as I was more of a 'lurker' than a 'poster' here, but I always knew her posts without having to even read her name necessarily - they were full of wisdom, with sincerity and caring, but also with a touch of boldness that I always admired in her. She was so smart and knew where she stood on the issues, and I love that she was never afraid to let people know when they needed a bit of practical wisdom... if that makes sense.

But most of all, her great love of you, Brad, was palpable. I suppose you can feel it when another CF couple has the type of love that you two have (and that I feel I have with my CF husband Chris) - the love that carries you through the tough times and that is truly the reason for living. She was a beautiful person and I hate this disease for robbing her of the many, many more years she deserved on this earth. I hope you are wading through these last few months with her love and laughter tucked away in your heart. I truly can't quite wrap my mind around the day when I will have to live without my Chris, despite it being on the edge of my mind every single day.

I send you a long, tearful hug and my wishes that your Lauren will never be forgotten.

ElizabethlovesChris
02-12-2010, 08:21 PM
Hi Brad,
<br />I have not been on the site in quite a while, and I just saw of Lauren's passing. I have no words, except I'm so very very sorry. As another CF spouse, it is like a huge punch in the heart to see your words and imagine what your journey has been like the last few months. I didn't know Lauren extremely well, as I was more of a 'lurker' than a 'poster' here, but I always knew her posts without having to even read her name necessarily - they were full of wisdom, with sincerity and caring, but also with a touch of boldness that I always admired in her. She was so smart and knew where she stood on the issues, and I love that she was never afraid to let people know when they needed a bit of practical wisdom... if that makes sense.
<br />
<br />But most of all, her great love of you, Brad, was palpable. I suppose you can feel it when another CF couple has the type of love that you two have (and that I feel I have with my CF husband Chris) - the love that carries you through the tough times and that is truly the reason for living. She was a beautiful person and I hate this disease for robbing her of the many, many more years she deserved on this earth. I hope you are wading through these last few months with her love and laughter tucked away in your heart. I truly can't quite wrap my mind around the day when I will have to live without my Chris, despite it being on the edge of my mind every single day.
<br />
<br />I send you a long, tearful hug and my wishes that your Lauren will never be forgotten.

lightNlifesMan
02-12-2010, 09:27 PM
Hi everyone,

I haven't been on in a while, either, but I got the email notice that there had been a new post to this thread so here I am.

Just wanted to let you all know that I'm doing really well. I attribute most of that to the fact that Lauren and I had such a great relationship; we talked about everything, and there was very little left unsaid or undone for me to deal with on my own.

Also, especially the last month I've received such peace and joy from the Lord. At first I didn't trust it; "How can I be feeling peaceful barely two months after her death?," I thought at first. But the love, joy, and peace of Christ just filled me more and more. Those are the fruit of the Spirit, after all (Ephesians 5:22-23). I've also been talking with a therapist, and a few weeks ago she told me that we had nothing left to talk about; I've resolved and/or completed every part of my grief that was necessary for me to address.

So... life goes on. I still miss Lauren terribly, and some part of me will always love her, but I'm no longer sad or despairing. Thanks for all the memories you've shared, and your prayers and well-wishes. I'll never be over needing those!

lightNlifesMan
02-12-2010, 09:27 PM
Hi everyone,

I haven't been on in a while, either, but I got the email notice that there had been a new post to this thread so here I am.

Just wanted to let you all know that I'm doing really well. I attribute most of that to the fact that Lauren and I had such a great relationship; we talked about everything, and there was very little left unsaid or undone for me to deal with on my own.

Also, especially the last month I've received such peace and joy from the Lord. At first I didn't trust it; "How can I be feeling peaceful barely two months after her death?," I thought at first. But the love, joy, and peace of Christ just filled me more and more. Those are the fruit of the Spirit, after all (Ephesians 5:22-23). I've also been talking with a therapist, and a few weeks ago she told me that we had nothing left to talk about; I've resolved and/or completed every part of my grief that was necessary for me to address.

So... life goes on. I still miss Lauren terribly, and some part of me will always love her, but I'm no longer sad or despairing. Thanks for all the memories you've shared, and your prayers and well-wishes. I'll never be over needing those!

lightNlifesMan
02-12-2010, 09:27 PM
Hi everyone,

I haven't been on in a while, either, but I got the email notice that there had been a new post to this thread so here I am.

Just wanted to let you all know that I'm doing really well. I attribute most of that to the fact that Lauren and I had such a great relationship; we talked about everything, and there was very little left unsaid or undone for me to deal with on my own.

Also, especially the last month I've received such peace and joy from the Lord. At first I didn't trust it; "How can I be feeling peaceful barely two months after her death?," I thought at first. But the love, joy, and peace of Christ just filled me more and more. Those are the fruit of the Spirit, after all (Ephesians 5:22-23). I've also been talking with a therapist, and a few weeks ago she told me that we had nothing left to talk about; I've resolved and/or completed every part of my grief that was necessary for me to address.

So... life goes on. I still miss Lauren terribly, and some part of me will always love her, but I'm no longer sad or despairing. Thanks for all the memories you've shared, and your prayers and well-wishes. I'll never be over needing those!

lightNlifesMan
02-12-2010, 09:27 PM
Hi everyone,

I haven't been on in a while, either, but I got the email notice that there had been a new post to this thread so here I am.

Just wanted to let you all know that I'm doing really well. I attribute most of that to the fact that Lauren and I had such a great relationship; we talked about everything, and there was very little left unsaid or undone for me to deal with on my own.

Also, especially the last month I've received such peace and joy from the Lord. At first I didn't trust it; "How can I be feeling peaceful barely two months after her death?," I thought at first. But the love, joy, and peace of Christ just filled me more and more. Those are the fruit of the Spirit, after all (Ephesians 5:22-23). I've also been talking with a therapist, and a few weeks ago she told me that we had nothing left to talk about; I've resolved and/or completed every part of my grief that was necessary for me to address.

So... life goes on. I still miss Lauren terribly, and some part of me will always love her, but I'm no longer sad or despairing. Thanks for all the memories you've shared, and your prayers and well-wishes. I'll never be over needing those!

lightNlifesMan
02-12-2010, 09:27 PM
Hi everyone,
<br />
<br />I haven't been on in a while, either, but I got the email notice that there had been a new post to this thread so here I am.
<br />
<br />Just wanted to let you all know that I'm doing really well. I attribute most of that to the fact that Lauren and I had such a great relationship; we talked about everything, and there was very little left unsaid or undone for me to deal with on my own.
<br />
<br />Also, especially the last month I've received such peace and joy from the Lord. At first I didn't trust it; "How can I be feeling peaceful barely two months after her death?," I thought at first. But the love, joy, and peace of Christ just filled me more and more. Those are the fruit of the Spirit, after all (Ephesians 5:22-23). I've also been talking with a therapist, and a few weeks ago she told me that we had nothing left to talk about; I've resolved and/or completed every part of my grief that was necessary for me to address.
<br />
<br />So... life goes on. I still miss Lauren terribly, and some part of me will always love her, but I'm no longer sad or despairing. Thanks for all the memories you've shared, and your prayers and well-wishes. I'll never be over needing those!

lightNlifesMan
02-12-2010, 09:40 PM
Of course I meant Galatians in that Scripture reference there, but hopefully you get my point anyway. Thanks so much for all your love & support here.

lightNlifesMan
02-12-2010, 09:40 PM
Of course I meant Galatians in that Scripture reference there, but hopefully you get my point anyway. Thanks so much for all your love & support here.

lightNlifesMan
02-12-2010, 09:40 PM
Of course I meant Galatians in that Scripture reference there, but hopefully you get my point anyway. Thanks so much for all your love & support here.

lightNlifesMan
02-12-2010, 09:40 PM
Of course I meant Galatians in that Scripture reference there, but hopefully you get my point anyway. Thanks so much for all your love & support here.

lightNlifesMan
02-12-2010, 09:40 PM
Of course I meant Galatians in that Scripture reference there, but hopefully you get my point anyway. Thanks so much for all your love & support here.

kayleesgrandma
02-13-2010, 10:16 AM
Brad, how wonderful to see you posting, and let us know how you are doing...I am so glad that you have the peace of knowing that Lauren is in God's presence--it truly is the peace that surpasses all understanding...

Thank you again, for seeing you brings a bit of Lauren back to us, and in turn, gives us peace...

kayleesgrandma
02-13-2010, 10:16 AM
Brad, how wonderful to see you posting, and let us know how you are doing...I am so glad that you have the peace of knowing that Lauren is in God's presence--it truly is the peace that surpasses all understanding...

Thank you again, for seeing you brings a bit of Lauren back to us, and in turn, gives us peace...

kayleesgrandma
02-13-2010, 10:16 AM
Brad, how wonderful to see you posting, and let us know how you are doing...I am so glad that you have the peace of knowing that Lauren is in God's presence--it truly is the peace that surpasses all understanding...

Thank you again, for seeing you brings a bit of Lauren back to us, and in turn, gives us peace...

kayleesgrandma
02-13-2010, 10:16 AM
Brad, how wonderful to see you posting, and let us know how you are doing...I am so glad that you have the peace of knowing that Lauren is in God's presence--it truly is the peace that surpasses all understanding...

Thank you again, for seeing you brings a bit of Lauren back to us, and in turn, gives us peace...

kayleesgrandma
02-13-2010, 10:16 AM
Brad, how wonderful to see you posting, and let us know how you are doing...I am so glad that you have the peace of knowing that Lauren is in God's presence--it truly is the peace that surpasses all understanding...
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<br />Thank you again, for seeing you brings a bit of Lauren back to us, and in turn, gives us peace...